why bother

why should i bother being nice when in the end i always get shit for it.
no appreciation whatsoever.
cept for a black face.
why should i even bother trying then.
i just don't understand the logic in that.
not as if that's the only one that can be used.
all because of laziness, selfishness and own ease of usage, that causes inconvenience to others.
what crap.
who isn't tired, who doesn't want convenience, who doesn't want the easy way out.
why can't the peace be longer...
then i wouldn't have to put myself through all of this.
been away already, talk online whole day, phone calls... it's never enough.
i need my peace again.
it's good to be alone. seriously.